I have not been a little girl for a long time. I am 33 years old and married with two children. Nothing special at first glance. Children like babies & hellip; A man like a man. Only the constant trips of a loved one disturb me a bit, but he assures me that I worry unnecessarily. Only a loved one brings money to our family. We already have solid debts and loans.
Probably the most problematic of all characters in our family. M & oacute; j my husband is a stickler and I am a terrible mess. Eventually, we were influenced by different ways of upbringing. I grew up in a family where cleanliness was not the most important thing, and my husband grew up with a very picky mother. Incidentally, she doesn't visit us. M & oacute; wi, he hates the mess in our house. I do not insist too much, because I understand that the hostess is like me. Even though I try to cook, I keep an eye on the children. But everything must be under the strict control of the husband. After all, if it's not there, I can get my flat so dirty in a few days that I can barely wash the dirt off.
I've never had perfect order. For two months I haven't been able to understand the blockage in the kitchen. I think it's all because of my strange state. Recently, I am in a terrible mood, yelling at the children, patting them on the back, I rarely clean, I do not go out for weeks, I just lie down and rebuke myself for being a bad mother.
Additionally, I have problems with my figure. But I can't start losing weight. For this reason, I don't want to see anyone, talk to anyone, or do anything. It just sues me cool. I understand that this is not normal, I try to force something, but with each month and year it gets worse. I am still very afraid that I will become like my mother (she has an amazing pigsty at home).
Recently, I even thought it was a strange disease. Maybe hereditary.
While I seem to be complaining a bit, they say you just have to get up and start changing something. But I can't do that. I feel constant fear and anxiety. And all I have to do is blame myself for being angry. I understand that it is impossible to live like this. But I can't find a way out. Has anyone had something like this? What are you advising me to do?
Katrine Johns has been a reporter on the news desk since 2013. Before that she wrote about young adolescence and family dynamics for Styles and was the legal affairs correspondent for the Metro desk. Before joining The Gal Post, Katrine Johns worked as a staff writer at the Village Voice and a freelancer for Newsday, The Wall Street Journal, GQ and Mirabella. To get in touch, contact me through my email@example.com 1-800-268-7128